Written: 5/18/12
So this may not be the best time to blog but for some reason I think this one will turn out interesting…
I guess I will start with what I posted on FB a bit earlier…
It is with an extremely heavy heart that I write this update to tell you all that the Bella Bean is no longer with us. It all has happened really fast but she had bad cancer. For those of you who have visited us on Murrayhill..you know about BB’s welcoming chatter, her need to be in your lap, her ability to leave you with a fur coat you didn’t want and her crazy paws! I am going to miss her ability to open any shut door (especially the bathroom:), spooning with her at night, seeing her pick stuff up since she essentially had opposable thumbs, her head nudges for attention, her crazy meow, her ability to make cat haters…cat lovers, her patients with the dogs and so many other things. I am not sure Murrayhill will ever be the same without her. I will never forget the day that she chose me…she was climbing up her kennel with her crazy paws and it was love at first sight. While her time was cut way to short I hope that she knows how many loved her and what an effect she has had!
So I am at a loss…a huge loss. Ā I have mentioned before about my bleeding heart for animals…today my heart practically exploded. Ā I didn’t realize that it would be as hard and as quick as it was. Ā Ironically my daily devotional today was about death. Ā In it they ask the question…why is talking about death a taboo? As I sat there contemplating Bella’s future, I thought about that. Ā I think the answer is that there are so many unknowns that you can feel is fear.Ā
My Bean
So I wanted to leave the above post because it is pretty raw emotion. Ā I am not very good at the sad emotion so to go through something like this has been a really tough. Ā It was not my first lost pet but it was the first one I have lost that has lived with just me. So the feeling was hugely foreign
On top of that…I found out last week that my Nana (on my Mom’s side) had suffered a stroke. Ā Another tailspin of emotions that I was not ready for. Ā My Grandma (on my Dad’s side) has been quietly suffering with Parkinson’s for the last year or more. Ā She is not doing well either and now that both of them are suffering it is really hitting home once again. LIFE IS TOO SHORT.Ā
I will try and keep everyone updated on my Nana and Grandma’s status. Ā One has had a very long tough road…the other is just starting down her road. Ā I can only hope that I continue to follow my road…wherever God decides to take me. Ā Please pray for my family.Ā
