I call it V-DAY! I call it this because it sounds more dramatic and to me funny. D-Day or V-day? To be a single girl on Vday can be fun…it can be happy…it can be hard…and it can be stressful. I do not usually get so personal on this blog…but here are some of the honest thoughts that go through my head on Vday!
1. How am I turning 32 in ten days? Where does the time go?
2. This is just another day of the year…why do I feel the need to examine my love life?
3. I in love.. with love. I am so happy for people who have truly found it.
4. I am happy and have so much positivity in my life.
5. I am not alone. Love is confusing.
6. I am relieved to be single…no pressure and no chances of failing.
7. I will not wallow in my singleness but celebrate it. It can be so fun!
8. I spend way to much time thinking about this subject.
9. I know deep down love will find me. I can not wait to meet the guy that can’t get enough of my craziness!
10. I know ultimately God has a plan for me and I need to trust him.
I have re-read this list 3 times now and ultimately I sound confused! I know that life is short and sweet and I should celebrate being alive everyday. I think that I do a really good job at this in most aspects of my life. When it comes to choosing, or being chosen as a potential life partner, I can not seem to settle down. Lately the discussions I have been having with my girlfriends are more along the lines of…I am not sure what I want and I know that I am not going to find anything until I am sure. One thing I do know is that everyday is a step in the right direction…and this is a marathon for me…not a sprint.
This weekend, a potential new friend, but virtually a stranger said to me…”I have never met anyone who is so good at being open, but so closed at the same time. That is a skill.” If this was the first time I had heard this I would have probably not thought twice about it. This seems to be a reoccurring observation by what turns out to be some really wise people. It is true because even writing this I am completely uncomfortable that I am putting to much out there. But I have to work on being more open. Not only with myself but with the people who care about me. Writing this may be a huge step in the right direction. Who knows how I have gotten here!
I guess my big test is to wait and see what God has planned for me. I just hope that I am not making decisions in the mean time that affect the outcome. I pray that God’s plan will take me the direction I am suppose to go, no matter what. Until then…rejection is God’s protection, patients and faith are key, and I have to remember my life is so, so good! I AM one of the lucky ones! I wish lots of LOVE to everyone today!
