thank you for telling me I am beautiful…
For or those of you who know of the Starbucks on East blvd you will know the scene I am about to set! Afternoon meeting ends, need a pick me up and to feed off of some energy, so I head to my office away from home! Lucked out and stalked someone leaving to grab their parking spot. BTW You are not a true Charlottean until your car has been towed from here! Walk in and there is no line but the place is packed. Since their remodel it has been this way!
I order and choose a seat at a high top table with ironically all men sitting there. 5 to be exact. One seat left and I boldly move in to claim it. Immediately I am greeted by the gentleman to my right with a huge smile and a…”should I move over?” I with no thought reply, “no you are just fine.” Hear my named called for my ginormous coffee, I then pull out the laptop and get to work.
I could tell this gentleman to my right (let’s name him “web guy” he mentioned that he builds websites) wanted to talk. And guess what I did…I kept my head down and closed off hoping he wouldn’t pull me away from the 1000 things I wanted to accomplish in the next hour. Finally he did start talking to one of the other men at the table. You could tell they had met before. Web guy says, “I was trying to smile at that girl over there in the red but she didn’t respond.” Sales guy (he mentioned sales, I know I am clever with the nicknames!) says “ahhh well sometimes that happens.” Web responds with, “yep and it doesn’t bother me because I know God will not bring anyone into my life that is not suppose to be there. I believe that the right person will smile back one day.” Sales says “yeah man that is a good attitude to have. I should be more like that.” Then they went on to talk about work which is how I know what they do!
As Web was leaving to go he says to me, “you look really beautiful.” I smiled really big and said “thank you. I hope you have a wonderful evening.” Better than red dress but not by much…
Now I bet Web has not thought one more thought about this small exchange, but I have not stopped thinking about. I want a do over because I hate that I did not take 10 minutes to just talk and probably more importantly listen to him. What a wonderful gift he gave me. I mean getting called beautiful is pretty amazing but even more than that he reminded me to slow down, put the computer down, stop stalking the phone and have an open-honest-God filled conversation with someone. He helped me remember that God puts someone in your path for a purpose. I hope next time I do not get trapped and miss it. None of that stuff was going anywhere. It’ll is all still here as I write this! Yes I checked some things off the list but next time I get the opportunity I am going to do better and be in the moment with all that it has to offer. And I am never going to forget Web saying I know God will not bring anyone into my life that is not suppose to be there because he is so right. Good, bad, fun, hard, short or long, no matter the relationship or interaction it is meant to happen. Let’s just hope he gives us the wisdom to be present enough to recognize why.